I and my college friends went to ATC during the term break to supposedly go look for cheap finds. I and a friend ended up going to Artwork. They have these tanks that are light-weight cotton and white, and cheap so I decided that that was what I was getting for the day. We were looking at the different designs when we stumbled upon one that said "loving you from afar" and it actually got my attention. My friend teased and said that I should get that shirt, a little embarrassed, I defensively said "Di kaya!" and looked for a different design.. When the day ended, "Loving you from afar" was still stuck in my head.

In the last year, I haven't felt anything close to or resembling love. Well, except for him, I have not felt anything resembling romance for anyone else.. until...

When I so much as see even just a glimpse of him, my heart literally pounds so hard and my cheeks start to warm up and my hands start to tremble.. It's the exact feelings I'd imagine when I meet "the one". Not that I'm saying that he is the one or anything.. When he smiles, literally it's as if "my whole world stops and stares for a while". When he looks at me, or waves at me or says hi to me, my whole system panics, and my heart skips a beat or two.. or three.. And my facial muscles involuntarily moves and makes up a smile that lasts the whole day..

Why did you have to look at me the way you did that day? By the way, you made me the happiest girl on my special day.. :">

And though loving you from a far is all I can do right now, I'd rather love you this way than lose you forever :')

Some words of wisdom.

I think, after every fall, the most important thing besides standing up again is, learning or re-learning the lessons that come with each fall.

Often times, Love is the reason why people become martyrs and [sometimes] stupid like how Rizal supposedly died because of his love for his country. I think it's pretty ironic cause love is supposed to pull you up and not bring you down, well... the healthy kind of love that is...

Love, in any sense and in any form, should be a TWO way relationship and not just one.. Both parties should always be benefiting from it.. One should not be leech that sucks out the life of the other.. Both should feel loved and not used.. Both should put [as much as possible] equal amount of effort, love and time.. Although I think, this won't be as easy as I think it is..

Also, love and the people involved in it should always be faithful, when it calls for you to be faithful. Please do not take FAITHFULNESS in the wrong context. When a family member gets in trouble you do not keep him from the authorities because you think that that's what being faithful means, being faithful to me means keeping promises to fulfill your responsibilities, so in that sense you become faithful to that person and his well being by turning him in. Faithful means remaining loyal and true when you're together and when you're apart. Being faithful means keeping your promises and lastly being faithful means leaving a relationship because you can't keep your promises anymore, rather than staying although you know you're in it only because you think you're remaining faithful that way.

Which brings me to my third point. When you THINK you have fallen out of love, which I think is absurd because I THINK that you have just placed your love upon something or someone else, you shouldn't stay in the relationship you're in anymore because you will just end up being frustrated and you're partner and you of course hurt. DON'T CHEAT JUST LEAVE. Well, if you'd think of it, technically when you're starting to fall for someone else while you're in a relationship and you're actually acting upon it, you are already cheating. But if you're man enough or woman enough, you should just be honest with your partner, tell them the reason why you're leaving, give yourself time to move on before you jump into another relationship. It's called respect, more people should practice it.

I'd also want to talk about "Irreconcilable differences"and "conflicts that can't be resolved". No two people are and will ever be alike, so yes, they would always have differences but I believe that things can be talked about. COMMUNICATION IS THE KEY as they always say. I think it's really important that from the beginning, people in a relationship, should communicate what they want, what their expectations are so that no one would say that they weren't aware, nor that they weren't informed. It's important to do this in the beginning so that one of them, or both of them could still decide whether to stay or to back out. It's better to leave in the beginning than to leave in the middle when you've realized that you can't live up to what you've signed up for. Also, I think it's good when people in conflict talk, of course when they have allowed their heads to cool down. Talking resolves at least some stuff because both parties can decide what they actions they want to take after. (both for friends and lovers)

Love should not be compromised and Happiness should not be compromised either. But people should compromise as to agree upon a common ground so that both would be satisfied.

These are just a few things that I'd want to share to those who might stumble upon my blog. I know that you might already know these, but it's always good to be reminded :)

happy reading.