when you are high on coffee and your brain is finally working right.

This is a compilation of different messages I sent out to a friend, which I am particularly proud of. Coffee really does magic.

Part 1:
"Kanina, suddenly naisip ko siya. Naisip ko I'm in love with that man who was with me, and now that he's not, these feelings I have are just from the aftershock of everything. Sometimes I cry, but I realize that it's only because my pride was really crushed. I sometimes want him back but again realize that all I want is a boyfriend. When I think about it, I don't even think I can fit him back into my life again. It's been way too long that I've detached myself from the thought of him and well him and I.

Part 2:
I'm longing for the things we used to do, but now it doesn't really matter with who. When I see him with her I feel jealous, not because they're together but because I want what they have. Not the wrong parts of it of course, only the part of actually having someone. I'm really not affected anymore, but I think I am and therefore I am.But when I don't think about it, I'm really not. I now believe that we create our own pain and that suffering is really a choice. I wanna be hard on myself for not realizing all of these sooner, but I don't want to blame myself for being hurt with that the excuse of being a little stupid and morbid.

Part 3:
I realize that it's not true what people say, that you know it's love when your partner's happiness is more important than yours. I believe that it your happiness and theirs are equally important, maybe yours sometimes a little more. I don't think it's being selfish when you think of your happiness cause in the first place, your partner would want you happy. I realize that you should never compromise or sacrifice your happiness. A relationship should be healthy and beneficial to both parties.

Part 4:
I don't believe that couples who fight a lot are really in love. fighting is normal, but it's another thing to fight a lot. Not only is it not healthy but it hurts the both of you in the process of arguing and making up. If you're partner doesn't want to talk about the things that upset him, doubt, cause a real man faces problems and not just finishes them. And in the end, it doesn't matter who's right or wrong, what matters is that you talked about it and faced them together. I think it's really lame to break up because of issues, cause if that's the case you will never settle with one. I think it's lame to say because you're nasasakal or because you fell out of love. You don't just wake up one day and realize you've fallen out of love because love is a continuous choice and a continuous decision and it is way beyond feelings.

Part 5:
Life is crazy and shitty! and it will always be unfair but who said things worth fighting for came easy? it sucks that there's an emptiness in my heart but it's not for anyone else to fill, not for anyone else but myself and of course the great MAN above. Two people should already be complete when they enter a relationship and not find someone who would complete them.

the effect of coffee; it races your heart and it awakens your mind.