Eat. Pray. Love. and my own addition to the list, Rest.

I was really inspired by the movie Eat.Pray.Love which starred the lovely Julia Roberts.. I could really relate with her and I loved everything that she did. I know I'm too young to be thinking of "finding myself" but one of my taglines in life is "live life, soul search and find bliss", and that's basically why I'll be doing Eat.Pray.Love. but, with the addition of rest. so that's Eat.Pray.Love.Rest.

Here's what I plan to do when I do my sight-seeing, adventure-seeking, memory-making trip..

Eat.

I plan to do this in the beautiful countryside of Florence, Italy. I saw this beautiful unconventional inn that instantly captured my heart, Casa Palmira. ♥

Not only eating my heart out with all the beautiful historical sites and delicious delicacies, but admiring the beauty of nature in the other side of the world..

Pray.

I'm still thinking where I should do this part of the trip. I was thinking either Israel or a Zen temple in China. I'll get back to you on that. ;)

Love.

My love will definitely and without question be in Greece. I've been dreaming to visit Greece and what better way to fulfill the life long dream by visiting it with a reason? To find love. I plan to stay in Crete, an island and not on the mainland of Greece. I found this really pretty place called Veneto Exclusive Suites.

Since Crete is a separate island from Greece Mainland, I just plan to take the ferry to Santorini and Athens.. I just can't wait! I see the beaches in Greece are lovely too! I won't let the chance of diving into the blue waters pass!

I cant wait!

Rest.

Rest would definitely be in Bali, Indonesia.. Where there are beautiful beaches and kind people..

To believe is to hold on, and to have faith is to let go..

Today I realized that there are just some things in life that no matter how hard we try to be successful at, we just can't seem to be.. Like pleasing your parents, or meeting the expectations of people around you, or your expectations of yourself, or finding the right pair of shoes that fit snugly on your feet but won't give you blisters at the end of a long and tiring day..

Today I learned that twice in a row, I have failed to meet the expectations of my Philo prof of me.. No matter how I try, i just can't seem to please her.. I prepare for the exam and answer my heart out but end up being disappointed of myself because I just couldn't make it..

I don't want to fail my parents.. I don't want to fail.. I've never failed..

Which is why I'll do whatever there is left to do.. which is basically.. review my hardest and answer my heart out again.. and after everything, cross my fingers and pray to God that hopefully that was enough to at least gain an uno..

My prof says to believe is to hold on and to have faith is to let go.. and today I will just have faith that God will give me what I deserve.. Today, I will just let go of whatever may happen.. Like the cliche goes, I will do my best and let God do the rest.. My God is a just God, and He will give me what I deserve.. If I deserve a failing mark, then so be it.. If I deserve otherwise then Praise God.. But I just choose to trust Him and let go everything else..

As cliche and as overused as it is..

Hi Baby!

Okay, that was cheesy.. I know! But hey, no matter how outdated, overused and cliche "baby" is, that's still what I'm gonna call you.. You know why? Cause you are my baby.. I will take care of you and I will love you and I will protect you as much as I can, for the rest of my life.. As long as I can.. I really love you, I can feel it in my heart.. I may not have met you yet but I feel like I have already once laid my eyes on you.. and maybe during that moment, my heart stop beating.. cause it knew it was it's other half..

I seriously cannot wait for that moment when I get to hold your hand.. Although of course, I do not have any other option but to wait.. I cannot imagine how happy I'll be when I say my first I love you too.. I can't even help myself from smiling at the thought of calling you mine.. my forever..

You can expect a big warm hug the day you make me yours, but know that from day one I have been wanting too.. i can imagine that smile you'll have that will have stolen my heart.. and that smile will keep me smiling..

I miss you.. and I don't know what's taking you so long.. but like how the saying goes "The longer you wait for something, the more you learn to appreciate it.." and that's what I'm learning now.. I'm learning to appreciate this time apart.. learning to appreciate this time apart.. learning to love you more and of course learning to love myself in the process too..

Till that day that are eyes meet, and our hearts too..

I love you,

Kyle.

long drives and demo tapes.

today was a good day, besides the fact that we had to wait for mr. congressman for 2 freakin hours.

Jim was such a good companion today, he kept the awkward silences from happening. He always had something to say and it was either funny or funny, haha. Learned a lot about him today, and well a lot about other things l too..

Mr. Congressman was a good man, I liked him. We need more politicians like him. He was driven and was development oriented as well. He had visions and goals he wanted to achieve, they were nice and new, and it's what the government should be investing on..

Chad, well he was his usual self today. Smiling every so often, agreeing to what Jim had to say, and well being cute without really doing anything.. He was there, but not as present as Jim.. I didn't really expect so much.. but it was fine..

But what I enjoyed most today was all the laughing.. If there was anything that we did today that I would really remember, it was all the laughs.. We laughed about the shallowest things, I don't remember laughing that hard in months.. It was too fun.. It was lovely.. :)

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on a different note...

hindi ko na maantay na dumating yung araw na tatawanan ko nalang lahat ng nasa nakaraan kagaya ng sinasabi ng mga mas nakatatanda.. hindi ko na maantay yung araw na pag nilingon ko lahat ng nangyari ay masasabi kong okay na nga talaga ako.. pero alam ko darating na rin ang araw na yon.. konting tiis pa.. konting tiis nalang.. :')

"Hey Kels, you okay?"

Busted. And I thought I was in good cover. I wanted to say "Naman!" like how I would normally respond to you but I just couldn't bring myself to do so, so I said "yep."... and I think it was believable, well at least to some people, so I didn't bother adding anything after that...

I sat there, too quiet, thinking whether or not to bring on the usual me.. but there was something about that seat, and the window, and the song... Then I realized, that was the first time I wasn't shotgun.. That was why it was so weird.. It was too awkward, there alone..

Or was it really that? Or was it because it was the first time since the last time that we've talked.. But when was the last time that we did? It was too long ago..

hey stranger, you okay?

Will it be as beautiful?

Will it be as beautiful?

Will it be as special?

Will it be as memorable as some say it is?

Will it be far?

Will it be soon?

Will it be under the bright moon?

Will it make me?

Will it break me?

Will it finally silence me?

Hauntings.

I was packing my things when my phone rang. It was a familiar number. I picked up.

Are you really calling?

yeah.

Why?

I just want to talk.

Is this that 20minute call?

yeah. cause 20minutes is all I have of your time.

*speechless for a moment* Not true.

Then why have you not been calling me?

I was packing my things when I looked at my idle phone. I decided to call a familiar number. He picked up.

Why haven't you called?

hmm.

It's like you don't have time anymore. You text me in the morning and you text me when you're about to fall asleep.

sorry. i've just been busy.

It's like you don't care anymore. You don't even text to ask how my day went.

you're like a soul that hasn't been given justice. you keep coming back to haunt me.

what would this summer's conversation be?

For the love of...

Shakespeare and Romeo and Juliet. ♥

I know Romeo and Juliet is such a cliche-d tragedy. People claim to love it so much, and in this blog I would too only because I know what Romeo and Juliet is about. In high school, we dissected what we could of the script and I found it so amusing that there were so much underlying statements in each act. I love how Shakespeare had me reading through the lines.

Romeo and Juliet's love story was truly one of a kind. A whirlwind romance it was indeed. Their love story broke my heart. I know it isn't realistic, but it's still nice to know that people died for reasons they believed was right. It was admirable that though Romeo had his shortcomings, don't we all?, he fought for the love of his life, with his life. And though Julieta was going against the will of her father, actually the whole family, I loved that she fought the same battle that Romeo did. I love how they really fought for their love.

But I hate that all they had were a few seconds, Romeo was even suffering, together, for the last time. Had Juliet not shock Romeo, he probably would have not died yet, but it wouldn't be Romeo and Juliet. Painfully heartbreaking.

I wish to find my Romeo someday, someone imperfect but would believe in our love and fight for it with me. One day I will be a Juliet to a man who has been praying for a love that's true too!

Where are you?

asan na kayong mga tinawag sa pangalan?

asan na kayong mga pinagkatiwalaan?

asan na kayong dati'y nandyan pa?

asan na kayo, bakit ngayo'y wala na?

I feel so alone in this dry and barren desert. I look around and see nothing and no one. I cry for help, but my cries just echo in the nothingness of the desert. I look around and search for anything that would bear life, but the bright blinding sun and I are the only living things that exist. I cry out to the skies, I cry out to each corner [if they even existed] of the desert, but my cries fall on deaf ears.

where are all of you? all of you that once fought this battle? all of you that once took up your cross? all of you that once lifted your banners? all of you that once slain the dragons?

where are you who once lead me? where are you who once defended me? where are you who once fought with me? where are all of you now?

I may not be the best warrior, I never was and I never will be... But I never stopped trying, never did and never will... I was never the most anointed one... never was i the most obedient one... nor was i the most honest one... but i did not let my shortcomings keep me from doing what I can, doing what I was called to do... I am not implying anything... I just want my co warriors back... I want the army back...