*breathes*

Her throat tightened..

and it made her grasp for air..

she felt a striking pain in her chest..

and she just had to breathe..

Inhale..

Exhale..

and the tears finally escaped her eyes..

and she didn't know whether it made her feel better..

sa madaling salita

Ako ay napapagod nang umasang may darating pa..

Ayoko nang umasa, ayoko na..

Status: It's really really complicated

So, I'm taking a few minutes off from academic work to sit still and blog for a little while.

I may give up on everything else but I will never give YOU up.

Honestly, I haven't been in the best condition lately. Everything that has been happening is seriously eating me up. There's only so much that I can handle and seriously, this year, I have reached my quota. I know I don't have the right to complain about the things that has been happening to me and around me but I seriously cannot take this anymore. I am too tired to function, too uninspired to dream and too dull to live. I have lost faith in life and the supposed "surprises" that it brings. I am tired of having to go through everyday with no bliss. I am tired of the same things. I am tired, period.

But know that no matter how tired I will ever be, I will never get tired of believing in my God. It's never easy to just hold on to Him and believe that He has a plan but that doesn't make Him any less of a God to me. I will never stop believing in Him. I will never stop worshiping Him, though circumstances would make it hard to do so. I will never doubt my God.

But I'm only human and I can only hold on to so much. I can only hope so much. I can only pray so much. I can only believe so much. I can only wait so much.

Lord, You are the God of my situations. Lord I pray that you just consume me. Consume me with Your love. Overwhelm me Lord. And Lord I pray that You'd be patient with me and that you won't get tired of holding on to me too. :(

Maaring bang sukuan nalang ang buhay? :(