Status: It's really really complicated

So, I'm taking a few minutes off from academic work to sit still and blog for a little while.

I may give up on everything else but I will never give YOU up.

Honestly, I haven't been in the best condition lately. Everything that has been happening is seriously eating me up. There's only so much that I can handle and seriously, this year, I have reached my quota. I know I don't have the right to complain about the things that has been happening to me and around me but I seriously cannot take this anymore. I am too tired to function, too uninspired to dream and too dull to live. I have lost faith in life and the supposed "surprises" that it brings. I am tired of having to go through everyday with no bliss. I am tired of the same things. I am tired, period.

But know that no matter how tired I will ever be, I will never get tired of believing in my God. It's never easy to just hold on to Him and believe that He has a plan but that doesn't make Him any less of a God to me. I will never stop believing in Him. I will never stop worshiping Him, though circumstances would make it hard to do so. I will never doubt my God.

But I'm only human and I can only hold on to so much. I can only hope so much. I can only pray so much. I can only believe so much. I can only wait so much.

Lord, You are the God of my situations. Lord I pray that you just consume me. Consume me with Your love. Overwhelm me Lord. And Lord I pray that You'd be patient with me and that you won't get tired of holding on to me too. :(

Maaring bang sukuan nalang ang buhay? :(