The Big Day ♥

Because prom has passed and my debut too, here's the last big event I get to plan... My big day, my wedding..

i have diagnosed myself with mild o.c.-ness.. i have this thing for planning ahead and re-writing it over and over again.. so yes, this is not the first one.. although this is the first time i'm putting it up on cyberspace intentionally for people to see..

this would be a more detailed one.. :D

I have always wanted to get married in an old church, A church like San Augustin or the Manila Cathedral for architecture and aesthetics sakes..there are 2 outdoor chapels that also caught my attention.. the Chapel on the Hill in Tagaytay and the St. Marc's Chapel in Los Banos.. but i want a Christian wedding, so I don't know how I'm gonna make that work..

My wedding video will definitely be done by Bob Nicolas or his team. I'm not so sure who to get as the pre and post wedding photographer yet, but i'm sure i'll stumble upon a good one soon.

Rapha and Anielle from Bob Nicolas on Vimeo.

My wedding gown would be my own design but I shall have it structured and couture-d by either Rajo Laurel or Monique Lhuillhier (A girl can dream). It would most probably be a sweetheart cut slightly mermaid with lace and a few beads.

something like this. but if they say that it's gonna emphasize my long torso and that it's gonna make my legs look shorter, i will go with this one.





The song that would be played while I walk down the isle:


My caterer would definitely be Kbycunanan. The set up would be by them too..

My motif would be "Mustard Yellow" or Light Yellow.. My wedding shoes would be yellow.. haha!

I'm not sure where my reception would be yet but it would definitely be something somewhat outdoor-ish. If not, I'm gonna have it at the Blue Leaf Pavillion. (Husband, I'm sorry... for being too demanding... I love you.)

The wedding ceremony itself would be really intimate. Only close friends and family would be invited. The other friends would be invited at the reception.
(to be continued.)

Emotional stir.

I don't what is it about today that makes me all emotional, really.

First of all, I won't say I'm not affected because the fact that I'm blogging about it is a very obvious fact that I am. I hate the fact that she's all cold and avoiding. Okay, I get it that she's upset over what happened, but if I were in her place I wouldn't have treated her any different. Well, if this friendship is that shallow fine by me. It's not my loss anyway, I know so.

Next...

I miss him.. not him him.. but this guy I've been in love with since I was round 8. I miss him and his smile and how his eyes are all teary. I miss his voice and his compassionate heart. I miss how we used to have everyday spent together. I miss you.

There are times that I wished I didn't move to Manila, maybe then all the struggles and hardships would have been prevented or avoided for that matter. Maybe things would have been less complicated had we not run away.

But at the end of the day, I wouldn't have it any other way. Had we not moved here, I wouldn't have met some of the loveliest people in my life.

Driving on Friendship Highway.

"Do you know I'd walk a thousand miles if I could just see you tonight?".

Today was figuratively and literally one of the longest days of my life. Today, February 11, 2011, I Hazel Noe Edward and Thea went to the 16th Annual Hot Air Balloon Festival for the first time together. I and Thea slept over Hazel's the night before. We watched Tangled and realized it was already past one when it finished, when we planned to wake up at 2:30. We got ready for bed and tried to sleep, when we finally settled in, my phone started ringing, it was already 2:30. Turns out Noe and Edward were still in Antipolo, so we had extra time to cook and prepare the things we needed for the trip. They arrive at around quarter to four. We ate our breakfast, got a little distracted with all the stories we wanted to share which is why we left at around quarter to five already. We tried our best to reach Clark by sunrise, and because God was so nice to us, we were able to get there on time, a few minutes before the balloons took flight.

It was a really pretty scene, the sunrise plus the hot air balloons taking flight. I just stood there, choosing to be unaware of everything else, and just concentrated on the beauty of it all. After every balloon took flight, that was the only time I talked to the other four again.

Since it only took about 30 minutes of the day's time for the balloons to take flight, we had so much time to spare till the sunset flight. We decided to go to Subic to pass time. We did so much driving and eating and talking but we found that it was only 12 noon and there was still so much time to spare. We drove back to Pampanga and reached there at one, and like you guessed we still had about 4 hours to spare. We stayed in the car and talked about all the possible things we could talk about and played pusoy dos and to our relief found that it was already a few minutes till four o clock. When we decided to go in the field again, it started to rain. We left it up to the great and wise coin (we tossed coin) and followed its choice for us to leave the field already. While on the road, it rained so hard and we couldn't see so we pulled over at a nearby Shell Gas Station to wait for the rain to weaken. After a few serendipity encounters and a few songs that passed, we continued on the drive. I fell asleep after a few minutes of the drive and woke up to Hazel asking us if we could share for toll fee.

Every other detail not included is either unimportant or momentarily forgotten, but I will surely update this blog.

Today was a good day, great even! But i'm a bit zombiefied and should go to sleep now. so Tahtah for now!

A thousand miles by vanessa carlton by tman1220

the past, it haunts me.

Post traumatic stress.

Flashbacks.

Unbearable heart palpitations.

Breakdowns.

Pain in my throat.

I guess it's all coming back to haunt me.

It's a few months till the start and the end of everything.

Restaurant List!

This is to complete no. 74 of my to-do list :)

Starting January 2011. (Note: Not necessarily done by 2011)

A
B
C
D
E
F - Flaming Wings
G
H
I - Iluustrado
J
K
L
M
N
O
P
Q
R
S
T
U
V
W
X
Y
Z - Zarks

Sometimes the stars would refuse to shine..

Collide by Howie Day brings so much emotions and memories... It will always be one of those songs that will make my heart stop beating for a while.. It will always be one of those songs that will carry your memory..

maybe it's just a vulnerable time.. and a very trigger-some song.. but i suddenly remember that very moment with you.. on the fourth floor of an already closed shop at high street.. dancing to that song.. planning.. and promising..

i miss you this very moment.. i miss the man you were with me.. i hate admitting this but yes, i do miss you.. every inch of me at this very moment longs for you.. if i could just hold you now.. if only i could..

but at the end of the day.. reality kicks in and it bites..

at the end of the day I once again realize that it's long been over.. and that maybe it's the thought of us that I miss and not really you.. and that at the end of the day, i'm glad that we're not together.. cause had we stayed together, you wouldn't be as happy as you are now..

and neither would i..

and they say that things are better in the morning.. so i'll sleep this off.. and in the morning, i won't miss you like how i miss you now..

goodnight.

Collide (by Howie Day) by T2iMo

girly fantasies..

I will forever love this video :')

I wish my wedding would be as beautiful as theirs :')

it's a great day, for falling in love.. (click)

"Eight years ago i gave you my hand to hold, today I give you my life to keep..."