It's about time to give happiness another chance. ♥

It's been months, and there's only a few more days left of this year..

I've agreed [with myself] that I am giving myself a deadline. Not really a deadline but a mark of an end and a possibly beautiful beginning. It's about time to stop being reminiscent of the past, it's senseless and unworthy. It's time to finally move forward, not just move on but move forward.

When I think of the things that I have gone through, everything this year, nothing but mixed emotions come to me. Anger, bitterness, hatred, pain, a pinch of happiness, mostly angst if you would notice. And I have come to realize that I have devoted so much of my time and energy into being hateful and angry, which by the way are very tiring to be. It's about time to let things go, things that I wouldn't be needing the next year. It's about to get rid of the excess baggage, because excess baggages are costly. I want to bring with me only what I can and what I should for my trip to 2011, nothing more nothing less.

I'm really looking forward to a better year next year. Exciting things are coming up and can't help but smile in my eagerness and excitement as I look forward to these things. Summer 2011, the school's centennial celebration, another birthday and well, graduation. I know graduation won't be until the year after next but 2011 will be my "senior" year and it's the start of the end of another chapter in my life.

I'm really not expecting a new love next year, though it would be really lovely if something sprouts. I don't want to rush and I just want to wait, but if it does come my way I'm willing to start something. I want to be courted at least.

But yes. 2011. I'm really looking forward to more fun-filled-lesson-bearing experiences. 2011, don't let me down.

Sincerely, Me.