Timing is a funny thing.

I was looking at my past blogs and for some strange reason I suddenly paid attention to the dates. I am as Sara Bareilles puts it, a queen of attention to details. I pay attention to even the smallest things.. And though I'm usually forgetful and I leave all my things behind, I remember details, I remember moments, I remember dates.

Last year's [insert month here] was absolutely insane! Everything happened so fast that I didn't even notice that everything happened in a span of a month, long enough for things to grow but soon enough for things to fall apart.

** 10th, I blogged about giving up on love. Well, romantic love. I blogged about not wanting to enter a relationship anymore because I lost faith in men, my father included. I could read the hurt and the pain through each word of that blog, I wonder what I was really feeling during that moment.

** 11th, something happened, and I'm not sure if it made me happy or sad or both altogether. But I remember that I felt really really confused. I was confused about what I was feeling about the situation, about the person involved, about what happened, well you get me.. I was confused about everything.. But I remember that it helped me conclude this one chapter of my life.. I realized that I didn't want it anymore, not now, anyway.. I realized that it really wasn't what I wanted anymore..

oh my gosh, this is making me want to cry..

** 12th, I met the guy who taught me how trust again.. I met the guy who made me realize that not all things are bound to doom.. I met the guy who said the words "I really did fight for you." I met the guy who changed my views on things.. His timing for me was perfect.. but for him, I'm not so sure.. Just when I thought things were gonna turn out okay, well.. I guess they turned out for the better..

Timing really is a funny thing..  When you thought this is it.. it apparently isnt..