My feelings on waiting

One of the hardest questions to answer is that in a resume or application form that says "What is/are your weakness/es?" When you're trying to impress your future employers/bosses it's kind of hard to say "Well, I'm actually really bad with stress!" or "I'm really messy with my things!" or "I'm actually lazy 98% of the time!" Is it contradictory to say that I'm patient but I'm bad with waiting? Cause if there's a significant weakness I possess, it's that.

I'm patient with people.. I don't mind if I have to teach a lesson to a kid one too many times, because I can handle that.. I don't mind bearing with childish friends or those who don't have breaks installed on their tongues.. I don't mind senseless talks and absurd arguments.. I don't mind listening to my friends rant their lives away.. Because really, if there's one thing I can unconditionally share, it's my patience..

But the one thing that really gets on my nerves is waiting.. Make me do something else, make me do everything else, anything else, but wait. I cannot wait.. Actually I can, but I'm bad at it.. After the first ten minutes please expect that I'm on my way to cranky-dom. If you say you'll meet me at 3, expect that By 2:50 I'm there and if you come at 3:10 oh dear, expect that I'll have 10 minutes of moodiness too.. I'm usually on time, on schedule, on point, and when you tell me that you're arriving at this time, you should because I take your word for it.. When you tell me we're meeting up at this time, we should.. If we plan to meet at 8, if by 6 you think you won't make it, TELL ME. Don't wait until 7:45 to tell me that you're not coming because I most probably made plans and the necessary arrangements for our meet up. Tell me ASAP that you can't make it or won't show up because no one deserves to get stood up.. If you tell me to "Wait", oh I will wait.. And I will wait until I can't wait anymore.. And if by that waiting, nothing happens.. Please know that I will be very very upset..

What is it about waiting you ask that I hate so much? It's that feeling of uncertainty that surrounds you..

I hate how I feel unsure of whether or not, people still mean what they say. or if they mean to mean what they say.. I hate the feeling of being alone in a sea of people while waiting for that one person who would hopefully make you feel like you're not alone.. I hate the feeling of having to pretend like someone's coming when they're not.. I hate having to cancel plans.. I hate cancelled plans because most probably, I don't have a back up plan and I will end up feeling miserable and screwed after that..