I Cannot Live Like This

I just can't okay? I'm not complaining, I'm ranting.. I'm ranting because I'm tired.. I'm tired of living like this..

I'm tired of always feeling so pressured that I will take this family out of its financial difficulties. I'm 20. I just turned 20. I haven't even experienced working yet. You dream of big vacation houses and trips to Europe but did you ever even think that I have a brother who's supposed to be helping us? Isn't he supposed to be carrying that financial burden? I'm seriously so tired of feeling so pressured all the time.. So pressured that I end up failing.

I can't live like this. At home, where I'm supposed to be studying in Peace, people keep throwing tantrums! Banging things everywhere! I can't live in a house where people always nag each other about the same friggin things all the time!! I'm so tired of coming home, tired from school, without food on the table. It's still I who have to do the prepping, the cooking, the washinh! I might as well have stayed in my own unit!! I'm so friggin and effin tired to be in a house that doesn't even feel like home!! I'm so friggin tired!! I am!!

Can everybody just shut up and leave me in peace!!