I am not lazy, I am bored

Recently, I put some thought on things such as my habits and the way I do things. And I've come to realize that I am not real;y lazy, I'm actually bored.

I am currently under a health program which requires me to do and not do quite a number of things. I have to do this, I can't do that, yadah yadah. One of the things I should do is to take 40-minute walks as often as I can until becomes a part of my daily routine. On normal days, even if I really do like to lose weight, I'd have tendencies of thinking "I'll skip today and do extra tomorrow" and skip everything altogether. But today, I realized that I'm not actually lazy because even if I knew that I had a lot of things to do and that I'd prefer to lie on the couch and get some eye-shut for a few, I didn't. Even if it was raining outside, I wore my gear plus a hat, plugged in my earphones, set the timer and walked/ran. Another negative thing about me, which I've previously written a blog about too, is that I'm really impatient to the point that sometimes, it's irrational. Going back, since I am impatient, 40mins seem so long, which increases the tendency of me looking at the timer ever so often. Nevertheless, I still finish the 40mins. And with that, I conclude that contrary to what my mom and I think, I'm actually not lazy. I'm just really bored.

When I do the same things for a long period already, I get bored and eventually, I'd dislike doing it and do anything and everything if I may say, to put off that thing I dislike doing. Sometimes, I don't feel like picking up my law books not because I'm too lazy read but because I have become uninterested. Over the break, I finished a book in a couple of hours, just to show that I have no problems whatsoever when it comes to reading.

So if anything, I'm more bored and tired than lazy because I know that I'll readily clean out a closet or do a paint job or any order tedious thing except maybe, lift stuff.

Anyway, it's 3:10 in the morning. I should go to bed. Goodnight.