I hope it's not too late.

Most often than not, we take for granted the things that we have and give them value and attention only when we start losing them. It's a sad reality but it's not like anyone does anything about it. So today, I went thru my blogs again and most certainly, I got nostalgic, sentimental and sad again. Looking through all of the posts made me realize that maybe s/he really meant it when s/he said that s/he didn't feel appreciated by me. So here goes my apology and appreciation.

First of all, I want to say sorry for all the pain I've caused you and the people who love you. I have accepted through time that I am a tough one and that everything we went thru was most certainly tough on you too. I'm sorry for being selfish and for not trying to understand beyond what I can see and feel and hear. I know you had reasons as to why you did the things you had to do but I guess it was never really clear to me, and that was what hurt me. I'm sorry for our failed attempts to reconciliation and for my temper and tears that always got in the way of our almost-but-not-quite-there-yet ones.

I'm sorry if I asked you of too much, if I asked you for what was already beyond what you could give. I'm sorry if I did not support you enough with the things you wanted to do or the dreams you wanted to fulfill. I'm sorry that I was too stubborn to see that you were happy with who you were and that you were already getting fed up of other people trying to tell you how to live your life or what kind of person you should be. I'm sorry if I failed to be the best friend I promised I would be.

If its worth anything, I want to let you know that I really did remain loyal and faithful to us and our friendship. I loved you in ways I didn't know I was even capable of. Thank you that up until the end, you were a stubborn as I was. I guess if it wasn't for that, things would be more complicated now more than it ever was. Thank you.

I know I'm a beyotch at times and that I'm difficult and impossible, but thanks for staying despite all of that. Thanks for still being here, up until now. You are awesome. And I hope you know that I love you, I still do and I'm ready to be that best friend I promised to be, for you :)

Goodnight, loved one.