Breaking Routines

I am seriously in dire need of a distraction, not just tonight but for the rest of my nights [as a law student]. I know this might be something ironic to say as I need full on concentration to do good in law school but I swear on my toes that I need a distraction. I need infatuation.

It's not that I'm already disheartened in my pursuance of the jurisprudence, but no matter how worthwhile it is, it does get boring. It's as if my life is a routine of constant constant-ness. I wake up, eat, read, go to class, have the new readings photocopied, go home, eat, read and sleep. Some of which are omitted on special occasions.  Sometimes, I think even as I fall asleep or at the very moment I awake, I still think of what I did or will do during the day. It's challenging but it gets boring too. So yes, I am bored. I am bored of the moot-ness of things. I am tired of doing the same things everyday. It's as if everyday is a constant battle to give up on reading. I need excitement. I need infatuation. I need a breaking of my routine. I can't live like this. I just can't.

I need to get drunk. With words, with thought, with emotions. With the splendor of things. With the beauty of nature. With the uncertainty of the future.

I need to fall in love. With my friendships. With my everyday short drive trips. With the day and night sky. With the scent of faint flowers.

I need to seek new things.

I want to experience something. Anything.

I need to break through.