What I Want Now

It's 8:39 p.m. and I am currently at the library. It's the big day for us CRIM students tomorrow as we are having our first and last exam for the term. I am both nervous and excited for it and I can't wait for it to be over. Whatever the results may be, I know it's what I worked for and I will be accepting and proud of it.

But as I think of grave and less grave felonies and justifying circumstances, I'm also thinking of being beside the beach on a cool night listening to nothing but the sound of the waves crashing into the shore, in my hoodie and jamies. I want to be there, mind, soul and body. To find peace in the sound of the water, to find myself in the darkness of the night. To pull myself together, just before the second term of law school starts again. This is what I want.

If not in the beach, I'd want to be somewhere far from the hustle an bustle of the city. I want to be somewhere where the only noise I hear is from nature. The sound of crickets, of birds, of dogs and cats and what have you. I want to be some place where the only company I have is the company of myself, warm bed sheets and God.

I want to be away. I want to be away from it all. Even for a day. Even for just a day.

While my toes curl up from the coldness of the library and while I continue highlighting things on this do-it-yourself reviewer, I think of home and the peace it never fails to give me.